Mar 7, 2012

To be or not to be: Should I go to Beauty School?

"To be, or not to be, that is the question:
Whether 'tis Nobler in the mind to suffer
The Slings and Arrows of outrageous Fortune,
Or to take Arms against a Sea of troubles,"
For a long time I have been sitting on this idea, should I or shouldn't I become an Esthetician? I have visited this idea for years. In my last semester of college I took a Shakespeare class but while I was reading A Mid Summer Night's Dream, I was dreaming of something else, of doing Makeup. Yes makeup, What could be or sound more appealing than makeup? But being a single mom had its realities and I thought it was my job to stuff my dreams in my back pocket and do the right thing. Get the degree, work the practical job and of course sacrifice (boy do I have a love hate relationship with that word!) So I pushed on, got the degree and entered the wonderful world of work. I thought if only my skills and passions would lie in updating systems and acting on every matter with the utmost urgency.  If only I could be more like everybody else. Fall in line, work hard and yes, sacrifice! But alas, I wasn't like everyone else (or realistically maybe everyone else wasn't so much unlike me). When I went to Barnes & Noble I would find myself in the Health and Beauty section reading books on the man that I admired most not William Shakespeare but Kevin Aucoin, my favorite  makeup artist. Over the past few years I have tried my hand at various professions but essentially they have lead me right back to that very same cross roads. To look it in the face one more time and decide. "To be or not to be".  It’s a scary decision to change my routine, to re-build my life from square one all while potentially taking a pay cut and acquiring a new debt. All of these reasons have kept me at a standstill over the last few years.  But it is time to finally take a leap of faith. I can now say with confidence that I have decided “to be”.